Tuesday, 20 December 2011

Christmas time...

Once again, Christmas is upon us. The most beautiful time of year. I LOVE Christmas.

But this year, it has been really hard to get into the spirit. As I mentioned here, I just haven't really "felt" it this year.

I put off shopping for as long as possible and am procrastinating on the wrapping (oooh...I hate wrapping).

Christmas was always so special when I was growing up. My Mom and Dad always made sure that no matter how hard the times were financially, our family room was filled with gifts and we always got what we asked Santa for. Now that Dad and Joanne are gone, Christmas has lost some of its sparkle for me and I find it a struggle to get through it all. I try my best to make it special for the boys and I put on a happy face most of the time, but inside, I am hurting.

Christmas songs make me cry, memories are so much stronger at Christmas than any other time of year and my heart hurts knowing that Dad and Joanne are not here.

I am looking forward to Christmas Day this year because it will be the first time in 23 years that I get to cook a turkey for Christmas! MIL usually cooks on Christmas Day and she makes lasagne and her traditional Christmas foods, but it's never felt like true Christmas because I never had my turkey with all the fixings. This year, she has been invited to SIL's house on Christmas Day, so my Mom and I get to eat the way we used to when I was little! Of course, Hubster and the boys will be with us to enjoy and that makes me so happy! We get to hang out together all day and maybe I will suggest a pajama day for all of us. No need to get dressed because it will just be us...I like that...alot.

Maybe we will start a new tradition this year. Something that can involve Joanne and Dad (and Hubster's Dad as well) even though they aren't here. A craft or something special in their memories.

Hmmm....that makes me feel a little happier already. I'll keep you posted on what I come up with. :) Pin It

1 comment:

Kate said...

SO glad you're having "your" Christmas :-) Looking forward to hearing all about it.

Love you.

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