Thursday, 25 August 2011

Change of heart

This past few days have been an epiphany for me, kind of.

Friday ended a week that was depressing, frustrating, disappointing, infuriating and just plain yucky. I hated the world. Add to the mix that I was PMS'ing like nobody's business and man oh man, you had a bad situation.

But over the weekend, something happened. I'm not even sure what, because it wasn't like "DING!" and everything got better. But on Tuesday, I just felt different. I felt positive and happy. I felt content. Most of all, I was not angry. I think I have accepted me for me. I have accepted my fate, accepted what God has in store for me, whether I think I agree with Him or not and in doing so, I have noticed a HUGE difference in my inner thoughts and in the way I treat others.

The one thing that I CONSCIOUSLY did this weekend was decide that I can't change the world. I can't make people like me. I can't make people agree with me. What I CAN do is accept the fact that I can't change things. And what a difference it has made. I have started to look at what I have and appreciate it more instead of wishing for more or for something different. I have begun to see the abundant blessings in my life. I have made the conscious decision not to let the negative stuff bother me anymore. I now realize how sick I was making myself. Not eating, not sleeping, being angry all the time. Eventually, that way of living would end up killing me.

So, I have changed my train of thought and I am better for it! Let's hope this is something that will remain!
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1 comment:

trooppetrie said...

when i decided to let others keep themselves down and not me. to be happy it was amazing how much calmer my house became. glad you are feeling better. I am new to your blog and have enjoyed looking around

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