Wednesday, 3 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day three

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I ama grudge holder...it's another one on my list for Day One...what I hate about myself. If you upset me, you have to grovel and beg for forgiveness, and even then, I will hold a grudge in my heart. If you upset me again, inside, I will pull up that original grudge and then it becomes a double-grudge. Oh yeah...just called me Grudge-o-rama.

Anyway...

I hold grudges against myself too. If I mess up, I can't let it go...for ages. I will carry around guilt and shame and anger at myself for whatever I did. If there are other people involved in whatever I messed up, they have long since moved on before I forgive myself. And I will carry it in my heart...a grudge against myself.

The reason for my blabbering on up there? I have MANY things I need to forgive myself for...continuing with self-destructive bad habits, yelling at my kids, not being the wife, mother and daughter I think I should be, acting before I think on SOOOO many occasions and causing hurt or confusion along the way...the list is really endless.

Eventually, the little grudges I hold against myself do disappear, but only because they have been replaced by new ones...besides, with all the grudges I hold against other people, there is only so much room!

Care to join me? Blog and leave me your link or comment in my comments section...I'd love to read your 30 days of truth...it's never too late. Pin It

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