Sunday, 28 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 28

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Well, chances are I won't GET someone pregnant...LOL...but if I WERE pregnant, I would be DEVASTATED. Seriously. I know that sounds awful, especially since there are SO many people out there who can't get pregnant, including several close friends of mine, but I am so done it hurts.

After Middleman, I prayed daily for a third child...I just was not complete. I needed a third child to complete me. I can't tell you the anguish I felt when Hubster was so adamantly against a third child. When I found out I was pregnant with Threepeat, I was overjoyed. Absolutely beside myself with thankfulness. I swore I would love every.single.second of my pregnancy, knowing it would be my last.

A few weeks after my positive test, I became possessed. Ask any of my friends, co-workers and family...I was pure evil. I laid in my bed at night, crying for my evil doings of the day, unable to stop myself from being such a horrendous person. It was like PMS times 1000. Thank God, I have wonderful friends and family, because otherwise, I would have NO friends now. *I* would not want to be friends with me after my horrible behaviour. But I simply couldn't help it...honest.

Anyway, after a horrendous pregnancy and a long labour, I brought home my little angel and loved on him every single second. But, I also realized very quickly that I am older, less patient and have much less energy than I did when I had Boy Oneder and Middleman. Threepeat is also a handful. He is so rambunctious and full of life that, with the older boys in extracurricular activities, I find it very difficult to keep up. If I had another child now, I truly think it would kill me.

So, I pray that if God feels that there is a baby that is meant to be mine, that He give that child to a family who so desperately wants one. Cuz I am D.O.N.E. Pin It

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