Tuesday, 30 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 30

Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

Dear Dawn:

I love your heart. You try really hard to help others in time of need and try to treat others as you would like them to treat you.

You are hardworking and dedicated, compassionate and kind. You have turned your life upside down for others and yet remain graceful about it...at least on the outside ;o)

You have beautiful eyes that look just like your Dad's and your smile is warm and friendly.

You have a beautiful singing voice and a real knack for poetry. You are a wonderful listener and have made a positive difference in many, many lives.

Your children are well-behaved and loving, smart and respectful.

You are a great person and I am glad that you are me!

Love,
Dawn
xoxo


What fun this 30 days of truth has been! Thought provoking and fun...I really enjoyed it. Thanks to all of you for reading along for the last thirty days.

And now, back to your regularly scheduled blogging... Pin It

Monday, 29 November 2010

30 Days of Truth -Day 29

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Hmmm....so many things! The problem is that most of the things I want to change are fundamental to who I am and always have been, so change is unlikely.

I wish I was more patient.
I wish I was less angry...at everything...all the time.
I wish I was in a better place healthwise.
I wish I wasn't so lazy.

See? Tough things to change. Pin It

Sunday, 28 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 28

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Well, chances are I won't GET someone pregnant...LOL...but if I WERE pregnant, I would be DEVASTATED. Seriously. I know that sounds awful, especially since there are SO many people out there who can't get pregnant, including several close friends of mine, but I am so done it hurts.

After Middleman, I prayed daily for a third child...I just was not complete. I needed a third child to complete me. I can't tell you the anguish I felt when Hubster was so adamantly against a third child. When I found out I was pregnant with Threepeat, I was overjoyed. Absolutely beside myself with thankfulness. I swore I would love every.single.second of my pregnancy, knowing it would be my last.

A few weeks after my positive test, I became possessed. Ask any of my friends, co-workers and family...I was pure evil. I laid in my bed at night, crying for my evil doings of the day, unable to stop myself from being such a horrendous person. It was like PMS times 1000. Thank God, I have wonderful friends and family, because otherwise, I would have NO friends now. *I* would not want to be friends with me after my horrible behaviour. But I simply couldn't help it...honest.

Anyway, after a horrendous pregnancy and a long labour, I brought home my little angel and loved on him every single second. But, I also realized very quickly that I am older, less patient and have much less energy than I did when I had Boy Oneder and Middleman. Threepeat is also a handful. He is so rambunctious and full of life that, with the older boys in extracurricular activities, I find it very difficult to keep up. If I had another child now, I truly think it would kill me.

So, I pray that if God feels that there is a baby that is meant to be mine, that He give that child to a family who so desperately wants one. Cuz I am D.O.N.E. Pin It

Saturday, 27 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 27

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Hmmmm....

A couple of things. I am so excited that I am back in touch with my "little sister". She bought her wedding dress on Thursday night, but before she decided, she asked me to come, along with her mother, grandmother and future maid-of-honour to see it. It was STUNNING and I can't wait to see her walking down the aisle as a princess!

Hope...I see an itty, bitty light at the end of my tunnel...things seem to be going well....(knock on wood and crossing fingers). Hope is a really, really good thing. Pin It

Friday, 26 November 2010

30 days of truth...day twenty-six

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Many, MANY times. Good thing I am a chicken and could never end things myself. I have had very low times in my life when I have BEGGED God to take me in my sleep, but thank God, those times pass. In the moment, in the depths of despair, when I am so depressed that I can''t lift my head off the pillow...those are horrible, sickening days.

But, but they are few and far between. I always crawl out of my hole, but sometimes, that hole is deep....reeeeeealllllyyyyyy deep. I know that my boys bring me out of those dark times...thank God for my boys. Pin It

Thursday, 25 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day twenty-five

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

The reason is twofold:

Luck

and

Only the good die young.

LOL Pin It

Wednesday, 24 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day twenty-four

Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

I made a playlist for my Daddy. I miss him so much and wish he was still here to give me advice and to be a part of my boys' lives. :o(

You Raise Me Up - Josh Groban - this song has such meaning for Mom and I. To this day, I am transported back in time to the weeks leading up to my Dad's death whenever I hear it. My brother-in-law, Mark, sang this song at his funeral.

I Will Always Love You - Whitney Houston - This was my father/daughter dance at my wedding. Although it is really meant for lovers, the words make perfect sense for a father giving away his daughter as well.

Wind Beneath My Wings - Bette Midler - This song was my sister's father/daughter dance at her wedding and the words are perfect for a daughter to sing to her Daddy.

To Where You Are - Josh Groban - A song about losing someone, but knowing they are just a breath away. Gorgeous, moving song.

Comfortably Numb - Pink Floyd - My Dad LOVED Pink Floyd and I think Comfortably Numb was his favourite.

Paradise by the Dashboard Light - Meatloaf - My Dad used to BLAST this song in our apartment when I was about 6 years old. Every time I hear it, I think of those happy days.

18 'Til I Die - Bryan Adams - Dad heard this song for the first time while he was battling leukemia. Until he got really ill, he truly was 18 years old in his mind. Pin It

Tuesday, 23 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day twenty-three

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.

Hmmmm.....

This one's a tough one. There are many things I wish I had done, but I am still alive (for today anyway) so I still have a chance to do many of them.

I wish I had gone to University or College. I missed out on my later teen years because I went straight to a full-time job after high school. I wasn't the most studious girl in the world and I couldn't wait to get out of school, but now, I regret it.

I wish I had spent more time with my Dad and my sister. That is something I can't do now as they have both passed away, and although I am comfortable with my relationships with them while they were alive, I think I will always yearn for more time with them.

I wish I had worked harder on staying in shape while I was younger and had more time. Now that I have three boys to care for, finding time for myself is extremely difficult and when I DO get time to myself, the last thing I want to do is exercise.

Is there anything YOU wish you had done in your life? Pin It

Monday, 22 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day twenty-two

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

As I said in this post, I truly believe that we learn from mistakes and bad things as well as good things. But, one thing hasn't taught me anything that I can think of...I wish I had never started smoking. Nothing good has come of this horrible habit and the lesson of not to start is obviously learned too late once you start. Pin It

Sunday, 21 November 2010

30 Days of Truth -Day 21

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

This is a dumb question. I would absolutely call her, visit her at home or at the hospital if it was serious. Fights take a backseat to friendships. Pin It

Friday, 19 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - day 20

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Drugs suck. Plain and simple...the illegal ones I mean. I do love my Advil when I need it, but street drugs are evil.

I think alcohol is fine, in moderation. I looooove my white wine and I love cold beers on hot days. But, like drugs, alcohol can be evil if misused. Pin It

30 Days of Truth...day nineteen

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

I'm not going to touch politics, because really, politicians are all the same...they have wonderful ideas before they get elected, and then once they are in, it's all about votes, not what is right...so, not going to go there...ooops...I just did, didn't I?

Anyway, I will tell you what I think of religion. Grab a coffee...this may get long.

I believe in God. I believe that His Son, Jesus Christ, died for us. I believe in Heaven.

But...

I don't believe that one has to follow a specific religion to be Christian. I do not believe that if you don't follow the rules of your church, that you are a heathen. I believe that the way to Heaven is through Jesus, but I do not believe that if you've never been taught about Jesus that you will go to the fiery depths of hell. I believe in a merciful, loving God who judges people one by one and forgives sins that we genuinely ask forgiveness for.

I don't believe that people should shove their religion down other peoples' throats. I believe that we should be open to answering questions and accepting people into our churches, but without judgement or pressure. Many Christians are so caught up in what they believe is right that they end up pushing people away. Who wants to hear that they are a sinner and that their religion is not good enough? Who wants their every move to be judged, condemned and belittled? Who wants to have every move they make criticized? Not me thanks.

I have a relationship with God. You may or may not have a relationship with God. I do things that you think are sinful. You do things that I think are sinful. It is not up to you or me to judge. As I said in my post about gay marriage yesterday, LIVE AND LET LIVE. As long as how I am living MY life does not affect YOUR life, leave me alone. I don't need to confess to a Priest, I don't need to be at church every Sunday and I certainly don't need to abstain from eating meat on Fridays in order to be a good Christian. It is the relationship with God that makes a person whole...not the rules of a specific church.

Ahem...stepping down from my soapbox now. Pin It

Thursday, 18 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day eighteen

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.

Ooooh...this one's a doozy and I am sure that some of my friends and readers will fiercely disagree with my opinion, but my opinion is MY opinion and you are entitled to YOUR opinion.

I am 100% supportive of gay marriage. It does not affect my marriage in any way, shape or form. It does not take away the "sanctity" of marriage. It may not be what literal Bible readers believe is right, but I can't think of ANYTHING negative that can come from love between two people. What difference does it make to ANYONE outside of the two people getting married, what gender they are? How does it affect me or mine if Bill and Bob or Jane and June decide to marry one another? Nothing. Zero. Zilch. They are consenting adults, who love each other enough to commit for life. I just don't get why people have to get involved in something that is none of their business. If you disagree with gay marriage, don't marry someone of your gender...but leave those who do alone. Live and let live.

So...that's my opinion, love it or hate it.

(Puts on her flame retardant suit and waits...) Pin It

Wednesday, 17 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - day 17

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

I have a few...

The Case for Christ by Lee Strobel

Charlie St. Cloud by Ben Sherwood

Too Fat to Fish by Artie Lange

90 Minutes in Heaven by Don Piper

All of these are awesome books and I highly recommend themm all...each one changed my views on something and they were all books that I just couldn't put down! Pin It

Tuesday, 16 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day sixteen

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

There are LOTS of someONES I could definitely live withou, but in order to avoid World War III, I will keep my mouth shut on them.

SomeTHING I could definitely live without is clutter. My house is a disaster. Clean, but OH so cluttered. I need the folks from "Cleansweep" to come in and declutter me...seriously.

What (or who) could YOU definitely live without? Pin It

Monday, 15 November 2010

One more interruption, I swear!

My pally, Karen and I attended the Girlfriends Getaway at Deerhurst Resort this weekend. Many of you will remember the FIASCO this summer and I'm not going to lie, I wasn't expecting much. Because of the horrible experience we had at Deerhurst, the resort offered me a $500.00 credit to use at the Girlfriend's Getaway. I really and truly didn't expect to be impressed, but boy, WAS I!

I arrived at about 6:00 on Friday night and was checked in quite quickly. There was a message on my account, asking that I call Anne, the lady who had offered me the resort credit, but she happened to be around the corner at the hospitality desk, so I went over and introduced myself instead. Anne was lovely...so warm and so genuinely glad to see me...she even commented on how cute my blog was and asked how Threepeat was doing...so sweet. She asked if I had checked in and I told her I had, but that I hadn't been to my room yet. I told her I would go back to register for the events once my friend had arrived and we had settled into our room. She thanked me again for coming and off I went to my room.

It was a beautiful room, one-bedroom suite with a gorgeous view...so clean you could eat off the floor. On the table was a card thanking me for coming and wishing me a good stay, along with a plate full of chocolate covered strawberries...they were to DIE for. Anne and Jody had left me their cards in case I needed anything while I was there.

Karen arrived a few minutes later and was very impressed with the room, and the strawberries of course! We took a breather, had a glass of wine and then headed back to the pavillion to check in with Anne. Once again, Anne was wonderful to us. She got us all hooked up with what we needed for the weekend and we headed into the welcome party. We checked out some of the cool exhibits of the local businesses and then headed back to our room to veg.

Saturday morning's weather was gorgeous! We headed down for breakfast at about 9:30...a buffet that was yummerific! We then had our Detox and Cleansing class, which we were both very disappointed with, but really, it was the only disappointment and it was a very small one. 45 minutes later, we were headed for the shuttle to head into Huntsville for a day of shopping. We had a great time and a great lunch and some laughs on the bus with other ladies who had done a cooking class and had had a few too many glasses of wine...LOL.

Saturday night's buffet dinner was EXCELLENT and Karen and I stuffed ourselves so full that we didn't even have room for dessert! We then headed back to the room with intentions to just veg. The concert didn't really interest us as we had never heard of the performer, Kathleen Edwards. We hung out in the room, watched the hockey game and then at 9:15, Karen said, "Ah what the heck...let's go check out the concert. If it sucks, we'll just come back to the room." Cursing her under my breath, I agreed. Ugh.

We arrived in time for the second half of the concert, and I must admit, I was really impressed with Kathleen Edwards...talk about talented! I actually have to admit, I enjoyed it!

After the concert, we hung around for the post-concert party in the next room and I am SO glad we did! Grandmas, all dressed in animal prints (the theme was "animalistic") were bumping and grinding (literally) and dancing up a storm. One lady, she must have been 65, was drinking a bottle of beer from between her breasts!!! Karen and I were in hysterics! Later on, several guys came in and you could just tell they were on the prowl for some hot cougers. Alas boys, there were very few hot ones to choose from, but that didn't stop them. Another entertaining 2 hours of watching the men checking out the women kept Karen and I howling.

We had three Coronas each and then up on the dancefloor we went. We had a blast! By the time we got into bed, it was 3:45 AM!!!!!

We slept in until 9:45 on Sunday and then quickly packed up and checked out. I was lucky enough to run into Anne one last time as we were leaving and thanked her for a fantastic weekend. Deerhurst really and truly did come through, restoring my faith in a top notch resort that is well worth the 2.5 hour drive.

Thank you Deerhurst Resort! You ROCK!!! See you next year! Pin It

We interrupt this day in 30 days of truth to bring you a newsflash...

So much has been going on this week, I just HAD to sneak in a post between my Day 15 and Day 16 posts!!

When I was 19, I decided to become a "big sister" with the Big Sisters of Peel...very much like Big Brothers, only women mentored girls, as opposed to men mentoring boys. Anyway, if you'd like more information on this fantastic organization, you can find it here.

I was paired up with a little girl named "M". She was 6 years old and her Mom was raising her and her little brother alone. I was supposed to commit to 2 hours a week for 15 months. I ended up staying paired with this special little girl for almost 5 years. I just loved her to death and I knew I was making a difference in her difficult life. We did fun things like bowling, crafts, movies, swimming, etc. and I really loved her company. She became part of the family and my sister parents adored her too!

When Hubster and I got married, my parents bought M a beautiful dress, which she wore as she handed out the scrolls (programs) at the door of the church. She was so happy to be involved in our special day and I was sooo glad she was a part of it.

Not long after we were married and living about half an hour away from one another, I realized that the time was coming for us to wind down our friendship. My hope was that she would be matched with another Big Sister who could dedicate more time to her. I promised to keep in touch and I'm sure she was heartbroken, but we were getting ready to have a family and staying paired with her kept her from someone else. She never did get matched with anyone else.

Somewhere along the way, we lost contact. I had my first two boys and was busy being a working Mom and M had moved on to high school. One day, when M was in grade 12, M called me. She had looked me up in the phone book. I was THRILLED to hear her voice and to hear that she was doing very well. We agreed to meet for coffee and a while later, I met her after school one day with the boys. We had a great catch up session and I loved seeing that the little girl that I had known was growing into a beautiful young woman.

We emailed back and forth and chatted on MSN the odd time, until Facebook came into existence. I loved seeing her photos and keeping in touch. A short while later, due to some drama in her life, she deactivated her Facebook account. We still exchanged the odd email until she came back to Facebook a few weeks ago. She sent me an inbox message with her cellphone number, asking me to call her because she had to ask me something. She is 27 years old now. (GULP! I AM OLD)

I called her last Sunday. After a little chit chat, I asked her what was up. She told me that she was now living with her long time boyfriend and was following in my footsteps to be married to a Catholic boy. Because she is not Catholic, she has made the decision to convert to Catholicism and has started taking her classes. She has to be baptized and then have her First Reconciliation, First Communion and Confirmation on the same day. She said she appreciated all that I had done in her life, being there for her when she needed me and that I was like a fairy godmother in her life. She then said she could think of no one else that would be as perfect as me to be her Godmother.

I was shocked, I cried, I had goosebumps. I told her I was honoured and flattered and that absolutely, I would be her Godmother. Her Mass will be close to Easter and I can't WAIT!

I cannot describe the feeling of knowing that I have made such a difference in a child's life. That after all these years, she still considers me to be important enough to take on the role of Godmother. I feel so humbled and blessed and I thank God for putting her into my life. I love you M!!! Pin It

30 Days of Truth...day fifteen

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

I haven't tried living without my Hubster or my kids, and never plan to, so that won't work here.

I've tried giving up my laptop, my Facebook, my wine...and many other bad habits, and I always seem to come back to them (or they to me!). I wouldn't say I COULDN'T live without them, but I CHOOSE not to. LOL.

I may have bad habits, but believe it or not, I am a better person because of (or in spite of) them. Take me with my bad habits my friends...trust me...you don't want to know me without them!! Pin It

Sunday, 14 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day fourteen

Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)

I don't have any "personal" heroes who have let me down...if they DID let me down, they wouldn't be a hero in my eyes.

But...

Public heroes who have let me down? There are many. I will go with just one though.

Dear Tiger Woods:

You are a horrible, selfish loser.

The actions you have taken, unable to resist the least temptation, have ruined you, your wife and your children, as well as your mother.

You should be ashamed of yourself.

Many children looked up to you as a hero...a superstar...a larger than life, AMAZING golf player. What have you taught them? That your penis is more important than the people who love you.

You are despicable and deplorable.

Try keeping it in your pants for a few months...you might get further ahead in life.

Sincerely,
Me Pin It

Saturday, 13 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 13

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)

Dear Air Supply:

In the early 80's, when my heart was trampled and stomped on by so many boys, you were there for me. Your songs, played loudly in my room, helped me shed a million tears and soak so many pillowcases.

"I'm All Out of Love" was the ultimate song, with "Making Love Outta Nothing At All" a close second.

"Here I Am"...sigh...I was always there, but the boys just didn't know it.

"Lost In Love"...man oh man....the memories come flooding back.

Thank you for getting me through such a heartbreaking, hormonal time in my life. Thanks for the memories now, as I watch you on Youtube and remember...

Love,
Dawn Pin It

Friday, 12 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day twelve

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

My body. Not anymore anyway. When I was young, I couldn't gain weight no matter what I ate...I had a metabolism that people would kill for. Everyone always told my I had such an athletic and beautiful body. When I got married, my wedding dress was a size zero and still had to be taken in at the chest. It was crazy.

Now?

Pffffft.....

I no longer have a waist. I have a belly like a 5 month pregnant woman and no one ever compliments me on my body anymore.

But, that's OK. I have three children to show for this body! ;o) Pin It

Thursday, 11 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day eleven

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Physically, my hair. I hate my hair. Others love it.

In general, I get alot of compliments on my compassion for others. I am told that I am a good listener and that I am there for people when they need me. That makes me really proud. :o) Pin It

Wednesday, 10 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day ten

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Surprisingly, after many of the other posts in my 30 days of truth so far, there is no one I can say that I need to let go of and definitely no one I wish I didn't know.

I have let go of many in my life...the toxic ones that made my life hell. There are still some in my life that cause me grief and pain, but some people you just can't let go...because letting them go would affect other people. So, I smile and put on a happy face when I am with them for the sake of others. But I have let go of the anger and pain that they brought out in me. But even the worst of the worst in my life have taught me something. The bully of the century in my childhood, for example. She terrorized and scarred me for life, but BECAUSE of her, I am a stronger person. BECAUSE of her, I know what to watch for and how to protect my children. BECAUSE of her and many like her, I am who I am. So, like Garth Brooks sings in his song, "The Dance",

Yes my life is better left to chance...I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance...
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Tuesday, 9 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day nine

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Julie.

Julie and I worked together for a few years and got really, REALLY close. She threw me a baby shower when I was pregnant with Threepeat because I had given away all of my baby stuff, thinking we were done having kids.

When we were on maternity leave in 2007, we spent alot of time together. Julie talked me down and gave me advice that I am forever grateful for many, many times.

When Julie started her "Pampered Chef" business, I had a party at my house and I think that was the last time I saw her. We are friends on Facebook, but we haven't seen each other in a couple of years. I don't know what happened, but we drifted apart and that makes me really sad. I have tried to reach out a couple of times, but somehow, the connection is gone.

Julie, if you are reading this, I would love to reconnect with you. I miss you and your wonderful friendship dearly. Pin It

Monday, 8 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day eight

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.

Pffffffffft.....

The list is WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY too long to type here and it continues to grow.

That's all I'm gonna say on this one.

How 'bout you? Pin It

Sunday, 7 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 7

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

No brainer.

My children...with my husband as a close second and my Mummy as a close third.

As busy and hectic as my life is, I could not imagine life without any of them.

I am so abundantly blessed. Pin It

Saturday, 6 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - Day 6

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Wow. Sooooo many things come to mind for this one, but the number one thing I hope I never, EVER have to do is bury one of my children. I worry about this each and every day of my life. The words are so morbid and horrible that just typing it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I read so many stories by parents of sick and dying children and each time, I feel as sick as the first time.

No parent, no matter what age, should have to bury their children. My sister was 34 years old when she was killed, but she was still my mother's child. That is just so wrong. It cuts a part of a mother's heart out and I cannot even fathom going on without one of my children.

What do you hope you never have to do? Pin It

Friday, 5 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day five

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Well, this one could be profound...or not.

My profound hope for my life is to find inner peace. I've tried prayer, meditation, relaxation, etc., etc., but I haven't found inner peace yet...one can hope.

My not so profound hope is that I will live to see my three sons married to wonderful ladies and to meet my children and great grandchildren. Oh wait, that's still a little profound, isn't it? LOL

OK, my not-so-profound hope is that I will someday go back home to England for a visit. It's not so far-fetched, but it's also not doable at this point due to lack of funds. I love England with all my heart and I am so homesick.

What's your hope? Join in the fun with me and leave your link or your comments! Pin It

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

30 Days of Truth - day 4

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Another question that has a list of answers. I will spare you the entire list and will not share details.

Yesterday's post should give you some indication that, in my mind anyway, there are ALOT of things I need to forgive someone(s) for.

In my opinion, the worst thing that someone can do is remain silent at a time when their friend is in trouble and needs support. In the words of Martin Luther King Jr., "In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."

Currently, the silence of some of my friends is what I need to forgive most. Pin It

30 Days of Truth...day three

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I ama grudge holder...it's another one on my list for Day One...what I hate about myself. If you upset me, you have to grovel and beg for forgiveness, and even then, I will hold a grudge in my heart. If you upset me again, inside, I will pull up that original grudge and then it becomes a double-grudge. Oh yeah...just called me Grudge-o-rama.

Anyway...

I hold grudges against myself too. If I mess up, I can't let it go...for ages. I will carry around guilt and shame and anger at myself for whatever I did. If there are other people involved in whatever I messed up, they have long since moved on before I forgive myself. And I will carry it in my heart...a grudge against myself.

The reason for my blabbering on up there? I have MANY things I need to forgive myself for...continuing with self-destructive bad habits, yelling at my kids, not being the wife, mother and daughter I think I should be, acting before I think on SOOOO many occasions and causing hurt or confusion along the way...the list is really endless.

Eventually, the little grudges I hold against myself do disappear, but only because they have been replaced by new ones...besides, with all the grudges I hold against other people, there is only so much room!

Care to join me? Blog and leave me your link or comment in my comments section...I'd love to read your 30 days of truth...it's never too late. Pin It

Tuesday, 2 November 2010

30 Days of Truth...day two

Day 2: Something you love about yourself.

Surprisingly, this one, I found much harder than yesterday.

I've been wracking my brain, trying to think of something to answer here and the only thing I can come up with really is my passion and my compassion. Let me explain...

When I believe in something, I am FIERCELY passionate about it. I will fight to the end for what is right, and I don't let what other people think about my fight worry me. I am not afraid to put my name and my honour behind something I believe in and I will never hide behind a fake name. I have had several battles to fight, many of them I have blogged about. Search my blog for "portables" and you will catch my drift.

I am a very compassionate person. When something happens to someone else, I internalize it and almost actually feel their pain physically. A death, a sickness, a hardship...I carry other peoples' burdens in my heart. They nearly consume me. As much as this can make for a very stressful and depressing life, I am proud of my heart and I love that in most circumstances, I make the other person smile, if only for a moment. I like to think that if the other person knows that I am walking with them, at least in spirit, that they don't feel so alone in a bad situation. I wish more people had this characteristic. I think it would be a much nicer world to live in if they did.

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Monday, 1 November 2010

30 days of truth...day one

Day 1 : Something you hate about yourself.

As I thought about this one, I realized that the list is long. :o(

My weight, my parenting, my bad habits, my laziness...

So choosing just one was difficult. But when I looked at my list, I realized that one thing describes ALL of these things...my negativity. I am really a negative nelly. My glass is ALWAYS half empty and I will find the negative aspect of any situtation and dwell on it. It's pretty horrible really and I have tried many things to change myself, but I always come back to being a miserable human being again.

Meh...just call me Eeyore I guess.

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