Friday, 10 September 2010

My heart is heavy...

I had to give up my Myles. :o(

Back in April, when I decided to part board horse, we were finishing up winter sports. I thought that after the boys' winter sports were done, we'd have a little spare time so that I could have some "ME" time. And I did. For a couple of months.

Then Middleman's rep soccer the tune of 4 times a week. And Boy Oneder's 4-on-4 hockey started...once a week. And Threepeat's Little Gym started...once a week. And the bouncer business took off.

That left very little time for anything else, "me" time being at the bottom of the long list of other normal life stuff that needed to be taken care of.

My two rides a week quickly became one ride a week and, over the last few weeks, it has been even less than that. I haven't ridden in two weeks. A soccer tournament, a wedding, a weekend Myles time.

I made the decision a few days ago to let Shelley, Myles' owner, know that I was no longer able to part board. When I first met her, she had asked for 30 days' notice if I ever decided to stop part boarding him, so I sent her an email. She, as usual, was lovely about it and totally understood. She offered to cut the cost of boarding in half and let me continue with one day a week and I gratefully agreed. I was going to ride this weekend.

We just found out that Boy Oneder has a hockey tryout on Saturday and Middleman has a soccer practice as well. On Sunday, we have four bouncers rented and a birthday party for Alysha in the afternoon. I realized that I wouldn't be able to ride...AGAIN. So, this morning, I sent Shelley another email telling her it just wouldn't work. I asked her for her home address so that I could mail her September cheque to her house because I have no idea when I would next be able to get to the barn. She was, in true form, wonderful about it and understanding and lovely.

She told me I could visit Myles whenever I wanted to. :o( I so loved that horse. I am a Mom first and Dawn second. I know that one day, my time will come, God willing. Until then, the kids come first...and I am totally OK with that. I just wish that Myles could be a part of my life too.

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