Monday, 9 November 2009

Mother worry

I swear to you....there is NO worse worry in the world than Mother Worry.

The problem is, my mother worry goes into overdrive. With H1N1, that overdrive becomes TURBO. The last 48 hours has been a constant battle in my brain between what is reason to worry and what is overdrive panic. Worrying about Middleman being sick and worrying about Boy Oneder, and especially Threepeat, getting sick. The "what if's" have kicked in and they are horrible.

Sleep has eluded me because I am constantly checking on Middleman. Every half an hour, I am non-chalantly checking Threepeat's forehead. I have googled every keyword you can think of in relation to fever, H1N1 and flu. I have asked everyone I have come into contact with about the vaccine, Tamiflu and whether they know anyone who has had pig flu.

It is ridiculous.

But I can't help it.

I hear about babies like Stellan and wonder how his mother handles it. I know she prays, but I pray too. How on earth does she watch her child flatline and then be brought back to life, only to undergo a seriously dangerous operation??? And she is at the hospital ALONE!!!! I just cannot comprehend how she is not in a mental institution. Today is just the icing on her cake of stress too...Stellan has had heart issues since he was in the womb...this is not new, but definitely scarier than it has been...I just don't get it.

I think of parents whose children have cancer or some other serious illness. My goodness I just don't know how they do it. I can't handle H1N1...God forbid I ever have to deal with something worse. I don't even want to think about it.

My prayers go out to anyone who is dealing with a sick child...especially serious illnesses...God be with you. Pin It

1 comment:

kia (good enough mama) said...

Wow. You were posting this while I was reading your previous post. Amen to what you said. I don't know how those moms do it. Torture. Pure torture.

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