Saturday, 5 May 2007

Bad, bad Dog Mommy!

The guilt is killing me, so I will blog it all out.

Two weeks ago today, Rosie, our 6 year old little bichon frise, ran like a bat out of hell out the front door and down the five steps of our porch. At the bottom of the steps, she twisted/pulled/hurt something on her left hind leg. She yelped for a moment and I picked her up right away and rubbed her leg. She seemed fine afterwards, other than hopping so as not to put weight on that leg…we figured it was a bruise or something. Over the next couple of days, I rubbed and massaged her leg, trying to figure out where the pain was coming from because she still hadn’t put any weight on it. Nothing seemed to bother her.

On that Tuesday, I took her to the vet. Imagine the shock I had when the vet said Rosie had torn all of the ligaments in her knee. Imagine the HORROR of finding out that in order to fix it, Rosie would need an operation…to the tune of approximately $2,500.00!!! Remember that I was 6 days postpartum at this point. I lost it. I started BAWLING and told the vet that we simply did not HAVE $2,500.00 for an operation for Rosie. I was devastated. The poor vet, knowing that I had just had a baby, was all apologetic and didn’t really know what to say to make me feel better. I asked her to give me a second, composed myself and apologized for my hormonal breakdown. We kind of giggled about it and moved on.

I told the vet that there was no way we could afford this operation and that if it was the only option, we would have to put her down. The vet then said that we could try her out on some anti-inflammatory pills and that eventually, her leg would grow a fibrous coating and she would be able to put her leg down, but would never be the same again. She would be susceptable to arthritis and that eventually, it would be painful for her. But for now, she would probably heal in about two weeks. She was to be on strict bedrest, going outside only to relieve herself and then straight back inside…NO RUNNING. Do you have any idea how hard it is to keep a dog who thinks she is a rabbit still? But we have.

I started Rosie on the pills that evening, April 24th. Today is May 5th and there is NO improvement whatsoever. She still hops on three legs. She won’t even ATTEMPT to climb the basement stairs…we have to carry her up every morning. It breaks my heart. She’s only six and to think that this is the way she will be for the rest of her life kills me. Don’t get me wrong, she is not in any pain, I don’t think…she just won’t put her leg to the ground.

I feel SO guilty that we are not doing the operation. Hubster keeps telling me that I have to remember that she is just a dog. But she is MY dog. I feel terrible that we are not going to fix her leg. I realize that $2,500.00 is excessive for a dog, but it still hurts that we can’t fix her.

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