Thursday, 29 March 2007

Inching closer...

OK…so I am REALLY starting to realize how close I am to having this little schmoopy of mine in my arms!

I have had a perfect medical pregnancy…textbook, in fact. But it has been hell to live with. I have suffered through every non-medical ailment there is…heartburn, hemmoroids, back ache, insomnia, nausea, headaches, you name it. Thank God I had no medical complications like high blood pressure or gestational diabetes, etc.

But as bad as the pregnancy has been, I am scared to DEATH of labour! I have absolutely no reason to be afraid…Boy Oneder and Middleman were easy deliveries with no drugs at all. But I know that even easy labours are labours all the same. I am too afraid to take the epidural (too many horror stories about complications and looking at Julie’s bruised back yesterday was enough to seal the deal that I do NO want an epidural!) so I know I will have to suffer through whatever comes.

The other thing is the loss of freedom. Middleman is 7 years old. For about 3 years now, Hubster and I have enjoyed the freedom of having independent children. We can sleep in when we want to, we sleep through the night (well, I did until this pregnancy!) and there are times where the boys go to the park together and we get complete peace. Those days are about to end…again. A new baby in the house, breastfed no less, means that I am tied to Threepeat almost 24/7 for at least the first few months. The sleepless nights, the fevers when he gets sick, the trying to stop him from crying….UGH!

I am at a point now where I am thinking, “What have we DONE?!?!” and “How will we EVER do this??!!”

I want to get it over with and meet this little miracle boy, but I wish there was the option to put him back on bad days! LOL.

I know everything will be fine once he is here, but it’s the getting there that’s scary. Pin It

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