Tuesday, 17 October 2006

Pent up anger

Have you ever been so angry with someone that your blood boils? Have you ever been hurt so bad, but not able to tell the person who hurt you? That’s how I feel today.

I am so, so angry tonight, but for the good of everyone else, I cannot say a word. The people who hurt me will never know it. Therefore, I am sure it will happen again…as it has in the past, over and over and over.

I have been made to feel inadequate ever since I’ve known them. I obviously embarrass them. When it comes to certain situations, I can never win. They are better than me (in their eyes anyway) and they want to ensure that face is saved in public. All I want is to do things MY way once in a while. To be left to my own devices. I can do it…just let me. I guarantee you won’t be embarrassed. Just because I don’t do it YOUR way, doesn’t mean it can’t be done nicely. I feel so alone when this happens. I have no one on my side. It’s me against the world.

One day, the anger will build to the point where I won’t CARE what anyone else says or does. I will blast these people with every ounce of frustration that they have caused me for the past almost 20 years. And it will be a fine, fine day. Pin It

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