Saturday, 30 September 2006

Unbelievable website

I found this site and just had to share it. It’s absolutely incredible!!!

Enjoy! Pin It

Friday, 29 September 2006

Retail therapy

I think I’m going to go shopping tonight. What shall I buy? My budget is about $100.00.

Do I buy something for the new baby? For me? For the boys? What shall I buy?

Leave a comment and tell me what YOU think I should buy. Pin It

Wednesday, 27 September 2006

8 months tomorrow

Sometimes, it seems like yesterday. That searing pain in my chest when I heard the news is vivid, the hurt so real that it HAD to be just recently.

Sometimes, it seems like an eternity. Eight months since I heard her voice. Eight months since I lost my baby sister. My only sister.

It’s hardest because she was “just” my sister. My Mom’s loss is so much harder because she lost a daughter, but sometimes, my hurt gets forgotten. It’s not really acknowledged. I just get told to be strong for my mother. My mother is strong. She doesn’t need me to be strong for her anymore. Now, I need to grieve.

I need to grieve the loss that I haven’t yet accepted. I need people to be strong for me. I don’t want to be the strong one anymore. I want to let the guard down. I want to wallow in my own self pity and NOT have someone to tell me to be strong. Since she died, everyone has just expected me to carry on. Cry at the funeral and then turn it off. Be strong for her girls, be strong for Mark, be strong for my mother. And for the most part, I have turned it off. But it hurts. I am feeling that physical pain in my heart that I felt when Dad died. That yearning for her voice…her hug…her smell.

She was my sister. My ONLY sibling. My Mom still gets lots of support and even my friends only ask, “How’s your Mom doing? How are Mark and the girls?” They are all fine. They are all slowly moving on. But I’m still here, now grieving the loss that they have already moved past, because I was strong. I’m not strong anymore. I need people to be strong for me…I need to be sad and pathetic for a while. It’s about time…isn’t it?

So please don’t ask me to be strong anymore. Don’t ask me to “be there” for people. Don’t tell me that my Mom needs me or that the girls are counting on me. It’s too much pressure.

Everyone will get along fine without me…you wait and see…they already are. Come and ask me how *I* am doing once in a while. You see, this pillar of strength is crumbling…the foundation is gone. Mom, Mark and the girls are eight months ahead of me in their grieving. I am only beginning…I wonder who will be strong for me now that they are moving on. Pin It

Monday, 25 September 2006

I talked with my sister, my Dad and my father-in-law today

Yes, they are all dead and no, I am not crazy.

My Mom and I went to see a medium this morning. Her name is Sandy Wiltshire and she is absolutely UNBELIEVABLE!

I went into her house a skeptic. I refused to give her an OUNCE of a hint on anything to do with my life or who I had lost, but they all came through and she named them all with NO prompting or help from Mom or me.

Most of the so-called mediums I have seen on TV say stuff like, “I am sensing a man with the initial ‘S’…does this mean anything to you?” If you say no, they change to another letter or something. When Sandy named my Dad, she came right out with “Robert”. She asked me where the Italian connection came from and I told her my husband’s family. She asked me who "F" was (my FIL). She asked me who Danielle was (my littlest niece). She knew that my nieces horse jump. She KNEW my Dad died of leukemia and she knew that Hubster’s Dad died very quickly after being sick.

The order of things was uncanny. My Mom and I sobbed at the end. It was wonderful. My Dad told us that it was OK that he died in the hospital…how could she know this? My father-in-law apologized to me for not being able to say good-bye and my sister apologized for “not being more careful” in her accident. How would this woman KNOW these things? All she ever knew from my mother was her first name and that she had lost a child. She didn’t even know my first name.

This was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. The relief of knowing that my sister, my Dad and my father-in-law are safe and can still see, hear and communicate with me is overwhelming.

Sandy told us they are with God. And now, I believe with every ounce of my being that there is life after death!

Thank you Sandy. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Pin It

Saturday, 23 September 2006

Houston...we have a heartbeat!!

Our little Blob:

(The baby is facing us, with his/her head on the right)

We had our ultrasound at 10:00 this morning.

I asked the technician to please tell me the second she saw the heartbeat and she said she would. After what seemed like an eternity, I asked her “Is everything OK so far?” She responded “Oh I’m not even looking at the baby yet. I am checking your ovaries and uterus first.” UGH!

Then, a few minutes later, she say “Yes…your baby has a heartbeat. It’s alive, OK?” I start BAWLING. LOL! She tells me I have to try to keep still and I try SO hard to stop crying. She says “I know, it’s scary, isn’t it?”After I stopped crying, she was able to do all the stuff she had to do and then she called Hubster in to see.

She gave us these two photographs. She also confirmed that her dating coincides with my ten weeks.

Thank God, Thank God, THANK GOD! Pin It

Friday, 22 September 2006

All blogged out?

I think I have writer’s block. I can’t think of anything to blog about lately.

Maybe it’s the constant nausea.

I’ll try to do better. Sigh…. Pin It

Sunday, 17 September 2006

WOOHOO!! Amazing Race 10!!

GAME ON! Amazing Race 10 started tonight and I am LOVIN’ it already!!!

Here’s my take on the teams:

Bilal and Sa’eed:

These guys are best friends. They are EXTREMELY religous and almost every scene involves them praying or praising Allah. They stop to pray ALOT along the route. They will be one of the first to be eliminated. 9:11 pm: Edited to add: I TOLD you they would be one of the first! They ARE the first! LMAO!!

David and Mary:

Holy REDNECKS batman!!! She has never been outside of the State of Kentucky! LMAO! This couple should be funny to watch. I have to give her credit on eating those fish eyeballs though!

Duke and Lauren:

A father and daughter team…except in Dad’s eyes, she’s on the WRONG team. He started crying when stating that his daughter was gay. She had to take over while he sobbed and advised that she had just come out of the closet!

Dustin and Kandice:

Miss California and Miss New York. Typical blondes. Not going very far. Sorry guys.

Tyler and James:

Best friends. They have been through rehab and are now models. I can see why…they’re pretty hot. Unforch, I don’t think they’ll get too far in the game.

Rob and Kimberly:

They are dating. But if tonight is any indication, not for long. She is a bitch. I can just tell.

Peter and Sarah:

AWWWWW!!! They are just “friends” but I see more in their future! How cool is it that she has an artificial leg and he MAKES artificial limbs! AWWW! I like this couple!

Lyn and Karlyn:

Best friends. I like these two. They are just…cute. I’d like to see them do well. I’m gonna have to watch a little longer before predicting their future (or lack thereof)

Kellie and Jamie:

Best friends. Airheads. Not gonna make it very far. And get RID of those scarves you tarts!

Tom and Terry:

Dating. LMFAO! Can they BE any fruitier? They jump up and down like cheerleaders and they sound like they sucked a WHOLE helium balloon. They will be good for some laughs though!

Erwin and Godwin:

Brothers. They got into trouble at the airport for shooting people with water guns. Lame-Os who should be in front of a computer, playing anime games, not competing in The Amazing Race. These two bug me.

Vipul and Arti:

Married. He speaks perfect English with absolutely NO HINT of an Indian accent…until he says his wife’s name. It is HILARIOUS! Watch for it….you can’t miss it. Pin It

Wednesday, 13 September 2006


A baby asked God, “They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow,but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?”

God said, “Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.”

The child further inquired, “But tell me, here in heaven I don’t have todo anything but sing and smile to be happy.”

God said, “Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you.And you will feel your angel’s love and be very happy.”

Again the child asked, “And how am I going to be able to understand whenpeople talk to me if I don’t know the language?”

God said, “Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet wordsyou will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel willteach you how to speak.”

“And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?”

God said, “Your angel will place your hands together and will teach youhow to pray.”

“Who will protect me?”

God said, “Your angel will defend you even if it means risking itslife.”

“But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore.”

God said, “Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teachyou the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you.”

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earthcould be heard and the child hurriedly asked, “God, if I am to leavenow, please tell me my angel’s name.”

“You will simply call her, “Mom.” Pin It

Sunday, 10 September 2006

Matthew Michael Flocco

How proud Sheila and Michael Flocco must have been of their boy, Matthew. I didn’t know him, but from what I have seen and read, I wish I did.

Matthew was 21 years young, in the prime of his life. A time when life should have been just beginning. He was stationed at the Pentagon on 9/11. He was proud to serve his country. His parents rested easy, “knowing” that their son was in one of the safest places he could be, rather than be on a ship somewhere, with the threat of being hit by a torpedo. Gosh, if they only knew…

I found this memorial on the website that was created in his honour:

Matthew M. Flocco, AG2, Second Class Petty OfficerSon of Michael and Sheila Flocco of Brookside Park, Delaware

On September, 11, 2001 the Pentagon attack happened about an hour after the first of two hijacked planes struck the World Trade Center in New York City, taking as one of their victims, Matthew M. Flocco, as reported by The News Journal Local News.

The article goes on further to report; “Flocco, 21, died when a hijacked jet crashed into the part of the Pentagon where he worked. A Navy weather expert, he was three years into a five-year tour of duty.”

Flocco’s parents said “he was proud to have been posted at the Pentagon. An admiral hand-picked him for the job after he scored first in his class in meteorology,” they said.

Friends have established a memorial fund at Wilmington Trust. Flocco loved baseball, and friends said they hope to use the money to build a baseball field or sponsor Little League activities in his name.

To Matthew’s parents…my prayers are with you on this difficult day. I have two sons and I cannot imagine the pain you both must feel.

Please remember Matthew and his family in your prayers today. Another innocent victim taken from the world much too soon.

Rest in Peace Matthew. Know that we will NEVER forget that day…EVER. Pin It

Saturday, 9 September 2006

I HEART Paulie Junior

American Chopper RULES and Paulie Junior is HOT!

Just sayin’…. Pin It

Thursday, 7 September 2006

It never ceases to amaze me

how a song can literally transport you (in your mind) right back to a specific moment in time…like this one did for me… Sorry – for some reason, I can’t copy the code to embed the video here.

It brought me back to my high school dance, standing against the cafeteria table, trying to look sexy as Jeff Harding walked by. Praying he’d ask me to dance and absolutely DYING inside when he DID ask!!! (sigh…those were the days) Pin It

Monday, 4 September 2006

We had a long weekend?

The long weekend is over and I feel like it hasn’t even begun!!

From birthday parties to get togethers to movie dates to housecleaning, this weekend disappeared before it even began!

The weather SUCKED, which probably made it worse and morning/noon/night sickness makes LOOKING at food disgusting, let alone attempting to EAT food.

High Notes:

We took the kids to see “Monster House”. It was a cute movie and the kids enjoyed it. Best of all, we saw it in 3D, which made it all the more exciting!

I got all the maternity clothes that my neighbour and my friend lent me. I have nowhere to put the clothes, but at least it is clean and neatly piled on my rocking chair! LOL!

Low Notes:

The weather…cloudy and cold and drizzly ALL weekend.

Morning/noon/night sickness…non-stop nausea sucks.

And that is Labour Day Weekend, 2006. Pin It

Friday, 1 September 2006

The awesome sound and feel of a fighter jet

This weekend, Labour Day Weekend, is the Canadian National Airshow at the CNE. Every year, a couple of days before the show, the airplanes fly over Pearson International Airport, practising, I guess.

I am lucky enough to work in an office DIRECTLY across the street from the airport, so I get a free look from my window!

Just now, a fighter jet zoomed over us and the sound was unbelievable! It shook the building! The power is just amazing!

There’s a HUGE grey military plane parked smack dab in the middle of the airport…I assume it is also part of the air show.

I’m hoping to get a look at the snowbirds today. They are pretty awesome too! Pin It
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