Sunday, 23 July 2006

For Joanne

It has been almost six months since my only sibling, my little sister, Joanne, was killed instantly in a snowmobile accident. I’m missing her so much and the guilt of words unsaid, or words that should never have been said, is all-consuming.

I pray each night that she will now know that all those words, both said and unsaid, were out of love…a deep love between sisters that only sisters understand. I find that I am fighting off the tears more now than when she was first killed. She made such an impact on so many people and it is only in her death that I realize how special she was.

Tonight, I wrote this poem for her. Usually, my poems flow abundantly, but this is the first poem that has come to me since her death. I guess I had put up a barrier in my heart. Tonight, this poem flowed…

I wish you could come back to me,
If only for a while.
I wish I could hug you just once
And see your pretty smile.

There was so much just left unsaid,
So much we had to do.
So many dreams left unrealized
I’m left here without you.

The ups and downs were hard to take,
We fought alot it’s true.
But underneath the arguments
Were just different points of view.

I miss your laughter and your jokes.
The way you sang out loud.
I even miss your lectures
Oh my gosh, you made me proud.

I never really told you
How much you meant to me.
I wish with all my heart and soul
That now you truly see.

Every day’s a struggle now,
You’re always on my mind.
I wish that I was with you now
And not here, left behind. Pin It

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