Friday, 14 July 2006

Feeling like an outcast

Have you ever been made to feel like the little girl with glasses or the little boy with freckles and buck teeth?

I’ve felt like that for a while now with a certain group of people I know.

It’s just like being in grade school, when you so desperately want to be a part of the “in crowd”, but for whatever reason, the “in crowd” doesn’t give you the time of day. You go home from school feeling so deflated and sad and no one really gives a rat’s ass…except maybe your Mom. Moms are good that way. They can make you feel like a million bucks, even though the rest of the world couldn’t care whether you are alive or dead.

I still have my Mom, but when I feel so sad and humiliated, I now look to my boys for comfort. They love me unconditionally and I am their world. When the rest of the world sees me as a pain in the ass, they see me as their hero. I am their life and it feels good.

So, the rest of the world can go to hell. I guess I will always be that little girl with glasses, but I am a little girl with glasses who has two little boys who think she is “IT”. They don’t care about anything other than the fact that I am their Mom and I always will be.

Now, 7 years from now, when Boy Oneder is 17 and Middleman is 14, it may be a whole other ballgame, but for now, I’ll take all the loving I can get! Pin It

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